I sit at my computer and check the clock on my palm pilot because I have disabled the clock on my computer so that I will work longer. I realize that since I have been home (5:30pm) I have done niether any homework, work that I am getting paid for, or anything truely productive that will be of some use a day from now.

I filmed a wedding in August. I am not done. The time that Fresno City College, CA gives me is not alot. I have the videos done, but the actual DVD authoring can take a while if you want it perfect...and I am a perfectionist. I need to get it done so that I can get paid, and then take my girlfriend to the Fresno Fair (not gonna happen) and out to a fancy resturant for once during out 1Y9M of being together.

I have taken a job to create a webpage for my girlfriends godmother. It is going to be about cats. She sells/shows her cats and she want to promote over the net. I thought it was kinda out there, but I soon realized that everyone who does that, has a site. So I accepted. Not a hard task, but agian, time is limited, and I already have a wedding to finish. She paid me $100 US which I already spent and I have nothing. I could not feel more pathetic.

I am taking a Macromedia Flash Animation class at FCC on thursdays. It goes from 6:00pm to 11:00pm. Next thurs day (one day from now) I have to have finished a 45 second cell animation (frame by frame, no tweening or very little) short movie. The idea is so clear in my head, I don't even need glasses to read it, but I have not gotten started.

Smallville is a television show that comes on tuesdays. I missed it, and wanted to watch it on sunday (rerun day). It didn't come on. Agian, instead of doing my work, I got a DeviantArt account that I am now obbsessed...<cell phone is ringing>

[text on cell reads AMP (GF) Cell]

TEK: Hello?
AMP: HI!!
TEK: Hi.
AMP: I am on my way home now baby, I just turned onto my street..
TEK: Okay.
AMP: I'll call you in a bit okay?
TEK: Okay.
AMP: BYE!!!
TEK: Bye.

[click]

<where was I?> which I am now obssesd with. I have gotten to the point where I need to create just to have something more to post. Alot of my posting now is complete worthless uncreative shit. I need to work on that. Anyway, I used KaZaA Lite (bettern than KaZaA) and found the episode. I finally downloaded it (took 4 days, and three porn videos < files where named incorrectly> and I began creading a DVD for it, because my GF missed it aswell. It is now burning onto my DVD-RW. It is a -RW because I have a Sony VAIO and that is what they have. So I spent all this time (today, after voting <my vote will not be displayed for fear of conflict> creating a DVD menu, links, editinf the contrast/color of the video along with re-exporting it to a larger size (320 x 240 to 720 x 480) and now it is buring. Meanwhile, I have made no efforts to better my situation.

On top of all this. I am trying to get a job. There is an arena that just opened up (or is about to) and I have not gotten a call back. I had one job that required you (the employe) to lift (according to the description of tasks) 100lbs by self, or with assistance. No problem I thought. Then I get there, and two others not including my self were required to life 700 pound objects. Needless to say, I left and collected my check for that one days work. Fuck.

My girlfriend is going to call back any minute so. I suppose I will go back to...nothing......agian. If I finish my flash, I will be sure to post it on here. It's a good idea. I have another flash on here too. I would put a link, but whever I do, they never seem to work. Oh well, sucks to be me.

I am going to go crawl back under my box, and nail it back to the floor so that I can be hidden once agian from the wonders of the would outside of my house. Goodbye to all who are reading.

-TEK-

P.S. Oh, and I have a film to edit, and website for the film to create by Christmas...oh no...Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King comes out during Christmas...super...